It has taken me a long struggle to be okay with hospitals and I am still afraid of being hospitalized.

And the reason is that doctors killed my grandmother. Except that my parents never told me this...

...I assume I overheard it, because I wasn't afraid of hospitals until she died. And then I was terrified of them. Hospitals were places people go to DIE. You never come out.

I know I didn't have that reaction when my mother had surgery a few years earlier.

My mother said she spared me from it, and I never had the heart to tell her that she didn't.

(When I say doctors killed her, I mean my grandmother's death was the result of years of misdiagnosis and medical malpractice. No, I will not forgive it).

Trauma, especially with children, can come from *something you don't even consciously remember*